Bright Side of the Road

Dec 13

Dec 13 Found Things

Erin Huttlinger

reflection

I’m consciously aware that I can make the choice to either go downhill emotionally at this point, or I can feel a huge amount of gratitude

Dec 7

Dec 7 Self Care

Erin Huttlinger

identity

The extent of my self care was a bottle of wine, something microwaved, and a Netflix film in my hotel room

Nov 30

Nov 30 Thanksgiving

Erin Huttlinger

reflection

This year I can think clearly enough, for long enough, to find gratitude.

Nov 15

Nov 15 On The Other Foot

Erin Huttlinger

reflection, interpersonal

As needed–he was the patient, I was the caregiver. Then one day, everything reversed

Nov 9

Nov 9 Ashes

Erin Huttlinger

milestones

I knew where this event would be taking place, and I was in no hurry to take him there

Nov 2

Nov 2 When You Need It Most

Erin Huttlinger

interpersonal

It’s a tape loop in my mind that I can access anytime, and when I’m at my saddest it can even make me smile to myself.

Oct 26

Oct 26 The Guessing Game

Erin Huttlinger

reflection

Then, there are the heavier questions. Not just the ones that would be convenient to have the answer for, but the ones that I lose sleep over

Oct 19

Oct 19 Reflecting

Erin Huttlinger

reflection

Many people ask me if writing is cathartic. I’m still not clear on that, but I do know that the feedback that I have been given is hugely cathartic.

Oct 12

Oct 12 Vows

Erin Huttlinger

reflection

They weren’t performance art for a captive audience. They were what we wanted to promise each other.

Oct 4

Oct 4 Compounding

Erin Huttlinger

reflection

I think to myself “Will this NEVER end?” Answer: “NO, get used to it.”

Sep 28

Sep 28 Working Backward

Erin Huttlinger

identity, reflection

I’m generally really good at working backwards, but now I’m at a loss.

Sep 20

Sep 20 Belief

Erin Huttlinger

reflection

A belief creates only one option for an outcome–Success

Sep 13

Sep 13 The Long Drive

Erin Huttlinger

milestones

I’ve done all sorts of analysis. Time vs. Money. Cost A vs. Cost B. Likelihood of Death A vs. Likelihood of Death B.

Sep 7

Sep 7 A Wedding Ring

Erin Huttlinger

identity

15 seconds of aggravation, confusion, defensiveness, and awkwardness. All because of a wedding ring on my hand.

Aug 30

Aug 30 Wearing My Grief Like A Badge

Erin Huttlinger

identity

The thought that this experience hasn’t forever changed me and left an indelible mark is crazy.

Aug 23

Aug 23 Conversations

Erin Huttlinger

reflection

There’s a different kind of conversation a person has with a spouse

Aug 16

Aug 16 Meanwhile, Back At The Ranch

Erin Huttlinger

milestones

Folks would start arriving around 8:30am so I needed to be ready for them, but I woke up and immediately went into panic mode.

Aug 9

Aug 9 Socks on the Floor

Erin Huttlinger

reflection

You don’t have to be sick, or 45, or on a second marriage. Life is always too short.

Aug 2

Aug 2 Again

Erin Huttlinger

reflection

It often feels like Groundhog Day, except that things don’t improve each time.

Jul 26

Jul 26 Powered by Grief

Erin Huttlinger

identity

Hi.

Dec 13 Found Things

I’m consciously aware that I can make the choice to either go downhill emotionally at this point, or I can feel a huge amount of gratitude

Dec 7 Self Care

The extent of my self care was a bottle of wine, something microwaved, and a Netflix film in my hotel room

Nov 30 Thanksgiving

This year I can think clearly enough, for long enough, to find gratitude.

Nov 15 On The Other Foot

As needed–he was the patient, I was the caregiver. Then one day, everything reversed

Nov 9 Ashes

I knew where this event would be taking place, and I was in no hurry to take him there

Nov 2 When You Need It Most

It’s a tape loop in my mind that I can access anytime, and when I’m at my saddest it can even make me smile to myself.

Oct 26 The Guessing Game

Then, there are the heavier questions. Not just the ones that would be convenient to have the answer for, but the ones that I lose sleep over

Oct 19 Reflecting

Many people ask me if writing is cathartic. I’m still not clear on that, but I do know that the feedback that I have been given is hugely cathartic.

Oct 12 Vows

They weren’t performance art for a captive audience. They were what we wanted to promise each other.

Oct 4 Compounding

I think to myself “Will this NEVER end?” Answer: “NO, get used to it.”

Sep 28 Working Backward

I’m generally really good at working backwards, but now I’m at a loss.

Sep 20 Belief

A belief creates only one option for an outcome–Success

Sep 13 The Long Drive

I’ve done all sorts of analysis. Time vs. Money. Cost A vs. Cost B. Likelihood of Death A vs. Likelihood of Death B.

Aug 30 Wearing My Grief Like A Badge

The thought that this experience hasn’t forever changed me and left an indelible mark is crazy.

Aug 23 Conversations

There’s a different kind of conversation a person has with a spouse

Aug 16 Meanwhile, Back At The Ranch

Folks would start arriving around 8:30am so I needed to be ready for them, but I woke up and immediately went into panic mode.

Aug 9 Socks on the Floor

You don’t have to be sick, or 45, or on a second marriage. Life is always too short.

Aug 2 Again

It often feels like Groundhog Day, except that things don’t improve each time.

Jul 26 Powered by Grief

One might assume that we would be a weight to society, but what we bring to the party far outweighs the burdens we impose